It's so cool the way God gives us just what we need when we need it. I struggle so much with beating myself up because of leaving my kids in our abusive relaltionship so long. So many times I struggle with feelings like a failure as a mother. But then I read something like the devotion from Prov.31 this morning. The Scripture for today is...My grace is sufficient for you, for My power is made perfect in your weakness. I'm definitely at the end of myself. I can't do this with Matthew. I'm not capable to lead Matthew through this dark, hurting, rebellious time in his life. I can't, but God can.
I've been feeling so out of control this week. I can't control Matthew. I can't make him do right. I can't control the outcome of this situation. In the past, when I am not in control, that's when I would drink/use pills. Praise God that TODAY, I'm not handling it that way. I'm working really hard to let God be in control. I'm just trying to use the tools that have been given to me to do the right thing. God, give me a heart that desires to obey You no matter what is going on around me. That's my prayer. That's what has kept me clean and sober for over a year. Today I will hold onto the Truth that God is made strong in my weakness. Amen.
Kim
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This is good stuff, girl. Good truths. A real life relevant God who has you, holding you and the kids. His hand is guiding you and He has shown himself strong on your behalf many times over the last two years. I'm so proud of you.
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